Bullying

Last night my grandmother bought my sister and I a movie. The movie told of a girl that was getting bullied in school. Growing up I was always bullied and never did a thing about it. I was shy and I let people walk all over me which...was very stupid on my part.

Now this movie made me cry and I've been prone to cry in movies but this one reminded me so much of myself; only the main character stood up where I didn't. I wish I had stood up because honestly I probably would be a better person (bold as I am now), still I do wish I'd said something because more people than just me got picked on.

I'm wondering now what life would have been like had I said something, or showed that I didn't care that they were hurting me. Maybe if I'd said something things would have turned out different. I really don't know how it would have been. I can just say that it happened to me and hope to minister to other kids who've been bullied.

Now I've been bullied online and in real life, as much as I hate to say it. Getting both sides roughly is not a walk through the flowers. I don't like being picked on as much as the next guy! But once you show them that you don't care they usually leave you alone - and sometimes they don't. Sometimes however it gets worse, other kids get this today and a lot of them end up really losing confidence.

What I've learned is that bullies hurt people to make themselves feel good because they are insecure. And the harder they hurt, it shows how bad they feel about themselves. And they think that hurting others will make them feel good about themselves.

Which is wrong.

Because I grew up getting hurt all the time -and I remember now that a lot of the girls were bigger than me- they were probably insecure about themselves.

So that movie really got me thinking.

The main character always thought of hurting the girls that were hurting her but she never did what they did. And that was good, because if you do it back then you are just like them and it's better not to stoop to their level because it is wrong.

Sometimes deep down you want to fight back, hit back but if you do then you are just as low as they are. It's better not to fight back at all but try to find a way to stop it.

I'm not quite sure what else to say on this matter, but it does have me thinking a lot today. And I might even watch it a third time (we watched it twice last night) just to think about it more...what's right and wrong. The movie ended well, and I can only wish it had been like that for me.

It's just something to think about I guess. I'll write more later.

-Lyn